- Stop letting what others said as a joke get into my head. Or perhaps they just said it like a joke but meant it? (DO YOU FEEL GUILTY AFTER READING THIS? Just asking because as i write this point, i actually have somebody in mind who always does this. Can’t say i like his/her “jokes” very much)
- Read more and learn more (never stop learning, knowledge is boundless)
- Save up and spend less. Even if i do splurge, i must spend the money wisely = no implusive buys just bcus “it’s cheap!”
- Do well for my studies. In a way, lessen procrastination. I didn’t put it as “stop procrastinating” cus that is IMPOSSIBLE so i just hope to lessen it. Uhm yea, somewhat not possible too
- Stop comparing myself with other people. Yes they have skinnier thighs, are slimmer, prettier, more popular, smarter, say the right things every damn moment BUT WE ARE ALL UNIQUE IN OUR OWN WAYS. Perhaps they’re hypocrite? Do i even have something worthwhile of admiration haha
- Don’t pass judgements (anyhowingly), hence i’ve crossed out #5’s last sentence. ACCEPTANCE IS IMPORTANCE!
- Laugh softer. I laugh like a damn male, it’s a proven fact. Sucks
- Don’t do things i don’t like to other people
- Work hard, play hard (I have no problem with the latter, it’s the former that worries me haii)
- I was going to say “fulfil at least #x, x, x, x (where x is a number)” but i guess ALL OF THEM ARE IMPORTANT. Ok perhaps #7 and #9 can be put on hold, but the rest haii bobian must give it my best shot liao.
- Tolerance tolerance
- Accept myself
Hi so im back @ my old blogger. Fickle-minded ttm. Should i delete this journal? HAHA it’s kind of troublesome to upload pictures here, sian.
I was anti-everything and everyone. I didn’t want people around me. This aversion was not some big crippling anxiety; merely a mature recognition of my own psychological vulnerability and my lack of suitability as a companion. Thoughts jostled for space in my crowded brain as I struggled to give them some order which might serve to motivate my listless life.
I am afraid of what/how people think of me, i try to make myself invisible as much as possible so that i can walk by unnoticed when i’m alone or when i feel especially bad – the kind where you feel like you’re just nicely balanced at the Inbetween & any slight movement can throw the balance off and then in the split second, you’ve found yourself crossed over to Rotted. I find myself to be a cowardly hypocrite sometimes. I feel inferior. I feel especially horrible today.
No mood for anything. Blah blah blah
Trying hard to not go back to Blogger, but the themes here are srsly damn fugly. Hai, can blogger and wordpress unite to form blogpress?
Ok long draggy post ahead!
Was browsing through my previous sem’s results when a thought struck me <– ha! this opening reminds me of a composition opening!
When it was time to choose a GEM few months back and i had no other choices other than to take Genes and You (thanks amanda for helping me, btw! ^^), i was dreading the start of classes. Firstly, i had no friends to go to that class with = loner & i really didn’t want to take another science module at that point of time.
However as i think back about it now, it’s actually a blessing in disguise because the mode of assessment is MCQ/fill in the blanks (which i suppose is very much easier than short-structured qns, no?) and the stuffs they are teaching are relatively easier for me than non-science students to absorb because of the course i am in now. Adding on, i found out i actually have a classmate who is in that same GEM class as me so i actually have somebody to talk and sit beside to! That class is so slack that i can use wi-fi during lessons and i’ve seen classmates sleeping without hiding.
So yea, i guess what i’m trying to say is that maybe what seem like bad decisions then could actually be otherwise now. We’re often too consumed by what is happening at that point of time to think ahead and realise that the future is unpredictable and whatever is happening now can perhaps conceive something really really fabulous. So stay optimistic!! Think happy!
Ok feels like i’m preaching haha.
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Hai going to KL tomorrow, dreading it. Sounds ironic after what i’ve typed above. Man, but sure hopes THIS TRIP CAN GIVE ME SOMETHING GOOD
Finished Season 1 of this fabulous show awhile ago (in less than 2 days, imagine the awesomeness level!), it’s really fantastic – Dr. Walter Bishop is just too amusing (Y) 
Bad thing about waking up at a time when there’s nothing to do – I am drinking Pink Dolphin and sitting infront of the laptop listening to 30 Seconds To Mars. I need a new earphone for my handphone, sian dunno why but my earphone always ends up soundless on one side ~
It’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie. The moment to live and the moment to die
You can be honest with your words, but it’s best to not be so straightforward. I am your friend that’s why i can forgive you.
I dunno about others who dunno you well enough. Just thought you should know.
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CC’s 18th celebration @ Pasir Ris
Some random day, doing research for IDEA
Bye
MST is on, time to do some last minute cramming. My life will be complete on Wednesday 11.30AM, now it’s just a pack of suffocating mess.
